Is this a symptom or am I going crazy?

So in about a week I should find out if I will get a BFP (Big Fat Positive). The only symptom, if that's what it was, I've noticed was last week my cravings for coffee were weak. I normally have several cups a day. But last Thursday and Friday, I wasn't feeling it and the thought of drinking it made me sick. But it didn't last. Today, I've already had 4 cups. I doubt you could have any symptoms within days of trying to conceive.

I ovulated today. Happy 30th Birthday to me!

I just about gave up. I took an ovulation predictor test every day for the past 11 days. And every day it was negative. I was so convinced that we would have to try all over again next month, I went on ebay yesterday and bought 50 more ovulation strips and a basal body temperature thermometer.

Then this morning, I decided to look at my cycles for the past year. I spent the while morning looking through my 2006 calender. I noticed there were 2 months that my cycle was 32 days. So I punched the date into those online ovulation calculators and bam! It said today fell ino the best time to conceive.

When I went to the bathroom, I noticed some discharge. It was creamy white. Gross, I know. I wasn't sure if I was ovulating or if I was so excited I turned myself on. I kept thinking if my husband worked with me, I would totally jump him now. I couldn't wait to get home and do some baby dancing.

When I got home, I noticed I had one last test strip left. I took it and at first the results looked the same as usual. So I jumped in the shower. When I got out, I glanced at the strip and I had to do a double take. At last, there were two lines. It was positive. I was in fact ovulating.

So I ran downstairs. Got some sparkline wine, two champaign glasses. I poured a glass for my husband and I and we toasted to starting a family.

We're going to try again tonight and then tomorrow morning. Who knows, maybe we will be lucky this month.

Ovulation Strips. Yes, I am desperate!

So I have reached that point where I admit that I am dumb when it comes to getting pregnant. I can somewhat tell when I ovulate, but obviously I must be doing something wrong since every month Aunt Flo comes by for a visit.

Well, this month I crossing a new low. I bought ovulation medical strips off of eBay from a Canadian medical wholesaler. He has really good feedback and at around $10 I figured it wouldn't be a huge loss if it didn't work.

I cannot believe I have to use strips to tell me when I ovulate. And I cannot believe eBay sells ovulation strips. I guess you really can find anything on eBay.

I read that most women ovulate about 10-12 days after the first day of their last period. So for me that would mean the earliest is tomorrow, the 12th. So I am going to take the test in the morning and if I see two lines that means I have 24-48 hours to try and conceive.

If this doesn't work, it's time for me and husband to see a doctor.

Damn Aunt Flo

The bitch showed up out of nowhere. And I hate her!

I noticed a few drops of bright red blood this past Saturday and then nothing. I thought maybe it was implantation bleeding. But most sites say most women do not experience it and if they do, the drops are pinkish-brown. Then this morning after peeing, I noticed a very tiny amount of pinkish-brown blood and I thought, just maybe it is. Just when I got my hopes up, I went to the bathroom after lunch and the bitch showed up. Grrr...